The week that started 28th October

LiLi reading into a microphone with many books in the background
Photo copyright © 2019 Esther Heller, used with permission

Well, I did it. I got through Overcommitted October — not quite intact, since I got a bad cold, but — and made it through to Novel-writing November.

Writing

Ended the month by reading an excerpt from my novel (in progress), published alongside the works of other talented writing, at Gay’s The Word bookshop to an audience of friends, agents and publishers. What a way to end Black History Month (and I was representing in my favourite jumper, naturally).

I was exhausted, and full of a cold, but it was still exhilarating. And I was delighted to be surrounded by friends and writers. So encouraging!

Now continuing to write my novel. For 50K words in a month (the goal of NaNoWriMo) I need to write 7 pages a day. So far I’m on:

  • 3 pages, Monday
  • 4 pages, Saturday
  • 1 page, Sunday

I was starting to put more pressure on myself, but I decided to give myself the relaxing weekend I deserve. I listened to podcasts about trees, watched videos about crocodiles and did a little writing here and there.

Timely advice!

One of my friends asked me what the theme of my novel is, and so I realised things have evolved somewhat.

Now themes include art and science – and how they relate to each other – community, trees & connection to natural world, something about people and relationships, magic, thriving under oppression.

Boom.

Trees

Also, crocodiles

If anyone knows any good podcasts on reptiles, please let me know.

Love the retro Star Trek Original aesthetic of this mini series

This week in audio

Healthy habits

Podcasts Under 20 [minutes] UK

This compilation, refreshed fortnightly on Thursdays, introduced me to:

Also, whilst we’re on the subject of healthy habits, I told my mum that I was trying not to use my phone at night and she said, ‘Why don’t you switch it off?’ I did a double take whilst I pondered this before realising the wisdom, and promptly complied.

The next day, I decided to only check social media and messaging apps for 15 mins after meals, and to leave my phone in a different room from me. It’s going great.

Oh, also, started reading Zadie Smith’s Swing Time this week.

Liberate ALL the structures!

Enjoyed leading Walk Around and What, So What, Now What (Liquid Clustering variant, with some 1-2-4-all thrown in) at the 2 day immersion workshop I co-designed and co-delivered this week.

Working on a real world problem to end exclusions (students being expelled) really made it worthwhile.

And, definitely ready to take a break now.

Pleased to have plenty of LS opportunities in my work; used Impromptu Networking and 25/10 Crowdsourcing (well, 15/3, since it was a small group) this week.

It’s not impostor syndrome, actually

I spoke about having impostor syndrome this week. But that’s not quite it.

People assume I have less experience and fewer skills than I have, and so I constantly feel like I need to prove myself to get recognition and opportunities.

It’s exhausting and demoralising.

When I do share an achievements that people find impressive, their shock and surprise is palpable sometimes.

Absolutely extracting myself from superficially supportive spaces and only spending time with people who actually nourish me and nurture my growth.

Whenever I’m at a training event, people assume I’m there to be taught. And I’m interested in learning, always, of course. But these are very different situations:

Scenario 1

  • Participant: You’re here to teach, right? We can’t wait to learn from you! Give us your wisdom!
  • Co-facilitator: Yes, but I’m also here to learn from you
  • Everyone: 😊

Scenario 2

  • Participant: You’re one of us; here to learn!
  • Me: Yes, of course, continuous learning is my jam, and, also, I’m one of the facilitators
  • Co-facilitator: Yeah, we like to get a range of folks involved to show that anyone can do it!
  • Me: 🙄

Resolution

Anyway, just gonna keep reminding myself that I’m putting my needs first now, at least for now, and see how I’m feeling in a few months after some deep rest and some healing.

Also, it’s led me to work on Min Specs of giving my time and energy to work-related activities. Which will help me a lot in 2020.

And I’ll double down on keeping track of my achievements and reminding myself of my awesomeness.

Restorative spending time with people I love and trust. Made all the difference.

Chilled weekend

Made a hibiscus (sorrel) infusion of the flowers in water, with lemon juice. Great alternative to plain water. (But don’t drink too much, check out this article or video for more info.)

bottle of red drink
bulk order of organic wholefoods
What better way to celebrate World Vegan Month?

What next?

Relaxing, as intimated above.

Back to bedtime routine of story time, music & meditation at 8pm.

Another timely reminder that Universal Income is where I want to focus my time, energy and attention.

https://twitter.com/my2k/status/1189297408112517120

Words of wisdom… from tea

Never try to impress others try to impress yourself.